Goodbye

Our son, Samuel Bradford, lost his fight this morning. He gave everything he had and more. We love you so much our sweet baby boy.

Samuel Bradford Stambaugh
1/27/11-6/28/11

87 thoughts on “Goodbye

  1. Martie says:

    Sandi, you and your beautiful family are in my heart and prayers. Words cannot express how sorry i am for you all.

  2. Leslie says:

    Words escape me. If only love could’ve healed your tiny body Sam…you’d have been healed a million times over. You and your family have been in my heart from the start…but especially today.

  3. Kelli says:

    I found your site through a friend of mine. She called you a supermom…she was spot on. Your Sam was a superbaby. I am so, so sorry for you loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.

  4. Sandi, you and Scott did everything, everything you could for Samuel. More than most people would’ve. And because of that he had five months of life in the outside world, of awareness and joy, and love, all those massages you gave him, and stimulation, that no one ever thought he would even get because of your and Scott’s wonderful, dedicated, and loving parenting. I know that is only small consolation. I am so, so sorry for your loss… Give Sebastien a kiss for me. I will call you soon to see how you are. Take care. God I’m sorry to hear this Sandi.

  5. I just read Scott’s email to work and then came here. I am so sorry. Really gutted actually. I’m also kind of awed — at Sam and at the love you showed him and the chances you gave him. Mary says it well. Love can be very, very hard, but it is always good.

  6. KTMO from FF says:

    No!!! I thought for sure that he was going to beat the odds. You are the greatest mom for giving him a chance and fighting the doctors when every step of the way they wanted to give up. You an amazing mom. I am so sorry. I just can’t believe it.

  7. Caroline says:

    I am so so sorry – I know words are of no comfort right now but you did absolutly everything in your power for Samuel. He will watch over his brother and you both of that I am sure.
    Caroline

  8. Rebecca from FF says:

    We are so, so, so very sorry for your loss. You are both amazing and inspirational parents, deeply loving your children and advocating for them every single step of the way. Sam’s life may have been short – entirely too short – but because of your love and your faith, he had a chance, he showed his moxy, and I know that his legacy of being a fighter will live on and on – “ripples into eternity.” May God fold him into His loving arms today, and may you feel the warmth of His love. Sabastien has an angel watching over him now. Prayers of healting peace for you all.

  9. kaytee shelburn says:

    I have been fighting for your boys for months now and I am so sorry that Sam didn’t m ake it. He WAS strong he WAS curagious and he WAS sent from God. He is an angel that was just too beautiful to stay with us any longer. Now he can smile and play and look down on his brother and your family and be proud of those he has left behind. I pray that you all can have some peace in this horrific times. Hug Sabastion a bit tighter today and tell him it is from all those that were fighting for him and his brother. God bless you all

  10. tracey says:

    I am so sorry for your loss and like others have said you are a wonderful and strong family, Samuel is now watching over you as a beautiful angel. Words cannot express my heart breaking for you and your family, you are in my thoughts and prayers…

  11. i’ve been praying that he would pull through- i’m so very heartbroken for you guys.
    what a fighter he was- i’m so sad that he was called home so early- but so happy that he touched so many lives in his short time on earth.

    God Bless.

  12. Cheryl says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss….I pray God give you peace. Sam is now a beautiful angel watching over his twin brother. Words cannot begin to express my sorrow for you and your family. I have been reading your blog faithfully and praying God would continue to heal Sam. I pray you find comfort in God’s arms and you be blessed.

  13. DK says:

    I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Samuel. We prayed for him everyday and were so amazed by his amazing will to fight and your strength as parents. You guys did everything you could for him and gave him the biggest gift by never giving up on him. All I can say during this difficult time is that I hope you both will eventually find peace and I hope you both know how many people your little boy inspired. A big hug to you, your husband, little Sebastian and a final one to Samuel.

  14. Nancy says:

    I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Much love to your family. Wishing you peace in this awful storm. He was such a fighter and his story touched the hearts of many. ((HUGS))

  15. Lynn says:

    My most sincere condolences on the loss of your Sam. I pray for peace and comfort in this most difficult time. Hugs and prayers going out for your entire family.

  16. Kelly says:

    Words cannot express how sad I was to see this today. I wish your family comfort and peace during this difficult time. Through your writing, Sebastian will get to know his brother and how hard he fought for life and how many people were touched by your story.

  17. Polly says:

    I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your son. My heart aches for your entire family. I wish you God’s peace that transcends all understanding and comfort like you’ve never known.

    Samuel, you will be missed.

  18. Jenna says:

    Sam is such an inspiration to so many people as are you. May you find peace. Your family will remain in our prayers.
    Jenna (FF)

  19. Michelle says:

    I am so sorry. Words fail me amid such grief. I will be thinking about you and Scott and Sebastien and sending your family love and peace.

  20. Bob Riley says:

    I’m so sorry….The little guy really stuck it out. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  21. Marybeth says:

    Telling you I’m sorry doesn’t even begin to describe how much I feel for you right now. Sam was such a sweet little boy–he was so much stronger than anyone could have imagined he could be. We will continue to keep you in our thoughts and try to have some comfort knowing that Sam will no longer have any pain.

  22. Dan says:

    I’m very, very sorry to hear this Sandi. He was a real trooper, as our you and Scott. You were fantastic parents to him. I will be thinking about you guys.

  23. tmgray says:

    I am so sorry to hear this. I wish I had stronger or better words for you at a time like this. You will be in my prayers.

  24. KCharestRN says:

    Sandi, I heard about your blog through the mom of a preemie that I cared for. You are such an amazing mom. What strength and love. I will be thinking of you, your family and your precious little boy, Sam.

  25. Imelda says:

    Samuel will be a strong inspiration to us all. He has left us a gift of joy and an appreciation for life. He will be in our minds and hearts forever. We will celebrate him for the rest of our lives. Sandi and Scott we pray that God will give you peace in your hearts and minds in this time of need. Chris me and the kids send you our hugs and love.

  26. Adria FF says:

    I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for your and your family. Sam is an angel watching over you all. God bless you all…my thoughts and prayers continue for you during this difficult time.

  27. Darja MC says:

    I am so very sorry, Sandi. What a brave boy he was, such a fighter, as are his mom and dad. He will never be forgotten. You and yours are in my thoughts.

  28. Amy M says:

    I’ve heard about you (and what an amazing mom you are) through Trish. I’ve been praying for your family for a few weeks now, since I found out about you, and am so very sorry for your loss of your amazing Sam. I will keep your family in my prayers.

  29. teamla says:

    My heart is just breaking for you – I am so sorry for your loss. I’ve been following closely and Sam sounds like such a fighter – he must have been up against a mountain. You are wonderful parents. Thinking of you all.

  30. Stephanie says:

    Scott and Sandi, It has been my sincere honor and pleasure to care for your sons, Samuel and Sebastien. My heart aches for your loss. Samuel was such a fighter and you fought for him every day. I will always remember your family, and I will never forget Samuel. Please keep me updated on Sebastien’s continued progress. God bless. My thoughts are with you.

  31. I’m so sorry to hear this. We’ve been thinking and praying for Sam, and will continue to do so for your whole family. He was an amazing fighter, and you are already the most amazing mom. All our love to you.

  32. Keri Woodard says:

    I’m so sorry for the loss of little Sam. My whole family has been praying for him every day. We’re all saddened by his passing. You are such incredible parents to both your boys, and you’ll continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.

  33. I’m so sorry to hear about Sam’s passing. He was a very strong little boy. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  34. Jessica says:

    I am so so sorry for the loss of your little guy. He is in the arms of angels free from all the pain that his little body endured here on earth. I pray that God will give you peace during this time.

  35. oh my god, I am so sorry, I just burst into tears reading this. My heart cries for you. He was such a fighter, right to the very end, our boys are playing in heaven together, and he will always be the angel on your shoulder.

  36. I wrote this poem for my little guy when he died, and it’s on his headstone. I thought it fits just perfectly for little Sam too.

    Some boys are born to walk the earth,
    Some boys are born to run,
    But some are born to fly the skies,
    Just like your angel son.

    xx

  37. brandy says:

    i am so sorry. my thoughts and prayers are with your family. i have followed your blog after you posted on the bump before they were born. you are an amazing mother who gave her son every possible chance.

  38. Lauren says:

    Sandi, I am so sorry. Sam was an amazing fighter, just like his mom. You showed him so much love — your infant massages, talking to him, holding him, fighting for him, etc. He received so much love and his life touch so many others.

  39. http://blakeandleah.blogspot.com/ says:

    There are no words…I am beyond devastated for You, Sam and all those who loved him…I am just so very sorry for the loss of such a dear little boy 😦

  40. There are no words…I am beyond devastated for You, Sam and all those who loved him…I am just so very sorry for the loss of such a dear little boy

  41. I’m so sorry for your loss. I was shocked and saddened to read the news today. I’ve been following and cheering on your boys since before they were born when I heard of your story on the bump. Sam defined “warrior” and showed such amazing strength since his birth. You and your husband were amazing advocates for him and his brother. Sam knew he was loved. My thoughts and prayers are with you

  42. Searching says:

    Oh, I am so, so very sorry to hear this. Your sweet Sam was very deeply loved, that is obvious to see. I will be keeping your family in my thoughts & prayers.

  43. Peggy from FF says:

    I’ve followed your family’s story for some time after hearing it on FF. I have been praying for Sam and your family, and my heart is just broken for you right now. Sending you prayers for comfort and healing during this difficult time.

  44. Bobbie says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. There is no fairness to the situation and only time will bring some peace. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

  45. Jess says:

    Sandi,

    I’m so so sorry for the loss of your son!!!!!!!! I can’t imagine what you must be going through. My heart just hurts for you. I saw Tricia’s post on fb about your loss and then your post on PL. Please let me know if you need anything at all!

  46. Sarah says:

    Dear Sandi and Family,

    I just found your site today and have read every moment of Sebastien and Samuel’s NICU journey. I am so sorry to hear of Samuel’s passing.

    Eighteen months ago, my son Alexander passed away due to fulminating NEC. He left behind his identical twin brother and fraternal sister (triplets).

    Please contact me if you need someone to listen, share your tears or hear someone else’s journey.

    You are not alone.
    Sarah
    swak50@hotmail.com

  47. I’m so sorry for the loss of precious Sam. He was quite the fighter and he gave everyone a run for their money. I know you will honor his memory in all that you do and I pray that God wraps his arms around you and your family during this difficult time. Sam has a perfect body in heaven and he’ll wait for you there. May God bless you & keep you!

  48. tpowers@bellsouth.net says:

    Sandi, I’m so sorry. You are an amazing person and you gave him everything you had, you are such a good mother, you have so much love in you and Sam’s life is evidence of that. I’m here if you need anything at all.

  49. KZ says:

    Sandi, my family and I are so sorry for your loss. My DH and I have been following Sam’s progress for a long time now. You are such an amazing mom and I am so glad that you fought to hold him every time and that you advocated for him. He is so lucky to have a mom like you. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers.

    Keren (Fi’s Mom from TPP)

  50. leslie says:

    I am so so very sorry. I can’t imagine what you are going through. He fought so hard. I am happy you fought to hold him as much as you did so he was able to physically feel your love and devotion for him. I know you were able to feel his love and devotion for you as well. He will be missed by everyone that got a chance to know him through your posts. Hugs….

  51. I’m from FF and have been following your blog for quite some time.

    I am so sorry about the loss of your sweet fighter Samuel.

    Sending many hugs and prayers for you tonight.

  52. jessica q says:

    I am at a loss for words . I am so saddened by the loss of Samuel . But his life here has been inspirational by his strenuous and your family love to fight for him. You are a great mom, your family has been and will continue to be in my prayers

  53. ktbear2 from FF says:

    I am so sorry for you family for the loss of your son. May Samuel rest peacefully. He fought so hard. May you find comfort in the moments & memories you have, the blessings that Sam brought to your life in such a short time.

  54. Meredith says:

    Here from a couple of different spots in the blogosphere. I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. You and your family are in my thoughts.

  55. Rebecca says:

    There are no words…your family and your little Sam have been so strong…

    From another MoM in cyberspace who wished that this wasn’t so…

    My heartfelt sympathies

  56. Carrie says:

    I am so very, very sorry. Many hugs and prayers for Sam, you, and your family. Sam was a fighter and an inspiration to all who has known him in person or through the blog. I’ve been privileged to have known Sam and your family through your blog and ff. Many, many hugs. I’m so sorry.

  57. Claudine says:

    Here from another blog spot
    I am so very, very sorry for the loss of your precious Sam. He was a fighter for sure.
    Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

  58. AZMoMmy from FF says:

    I am so sorry that Sebastian has lost his twin, and you have lost a son. Scooby and Scrappy, but esp, Sam were an inspiration to me while my twins were in the NICU. I’ve been rooting for him and your family since the beginning of his miraculous life. Wishing your family peace and healing, love and light. What a beautiful angel you have now.

  59. Cheryl says:

    Dear Samuel,

    You, little fightin’ man, dearest tiny scrap of a thing, have left me in awe of all you have accomplished in your time here on this earth. To fight as you have from the very beginning, to defy all the experts and their statistics, to survive within such circumstances, and to touch us all so deeply and with such grace, it is an amazing and wondrous thing. You were so tiny, but you grew; you were so isolated in your ward, yet you found friends; you struggled, but you’ve inspired. Thank you Sam. Our family is so very sorry that your body couldn’t keep up with your magnificent heart and soul.

    It is hard and unjust to have to say goodbye. So we will wish you well on your travels, hope for your safe passage, and say “Until we meet your spirit again.”

  60. TTrelax from FF says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. I have been a regular reader of your blog, but I haven’t posted. What a heartbreaking loss this must be but we’ve all been inspired by Samuel’s courage and he will not be forgotten. My husband and I have been routing for him since the beginning. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

  61. Rp says:

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful, sweet baby boy Samuel. I don’t know if you’ve ever read a blog called sweet/salty but it’s so lovely and written by a woman named Kate who lost one of her twin boys due to complications from TTTS and prematurity.
    http://www.sweetsalty.com/

    Wishing you so much peace, and sending gentle hugs.

  62. Cathy says:

    I’ve ready your blog for a long time now and every day I would look for updates. My computer has been down for a couple of days and when I got back on today I read your sad news:( I’m sooooo sorry for your loss and have been touched & blessed by your story and by Sam’s unbelievable strength & fight. I pray that God heals your hearts and I look forward to following this blog and watching little Sebastien grow up.

    God bless you and your family.

    Cathy

  63. Sebe says:

    If you didn’t know this is my first time going on here and I am Samuels Brother. I just want to say to him I love him very much and today I got the full story on him from my mom Sandi Stambaugh. You are the best brother I could ever have Sam.love Sebe.

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