After the shock wore off, I was home at night going through all my pregnancy books reading everything I could about twins. I start to remember what the doctor said about the risks, the size difference, etc.
And that’s when I learn about twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS). I don’t want to post all the research here, but a quick google search will provide plenty of information. My once happy self turned crying reading about the high risks of morbidity and death. This was probably the first time I realized how emotional pregnancy hormones could make me. I just had to stop reading, but went to bed crying.
The next day I call my doctor, and she tells me to not worry (little did I know), that I wouldn’t be able to do anything about it anyway, and that I needed to “just let it play out.”
My gut kept nagging me.
Around 13 weeks I had the NT scan. Mainly I wanted the ultrasound since my doctor doesn’t schedule one until 20 weeks, and well, I’m impatient.
At first when I’m seeing what’s on screen, I’m confused, but I can’t really fully understand what I’m seeing anyway. The technician stops and asks me if I know much about the pregnancy. I get a weird look, state that we just heard the heartbeat the previous day (156!), but that was about it. “Well,” she says, “Here’s Baby A and here’s Baby B.”
The rest of the scan I’m smiling like a mad woman, crying at the same time. A swirl of emotions. “We’re having twins! We’re having twins” goes around in my head over and over.
The doctor comes in, reviews the tech’s information, does some scanning of his own. Here’s when I find out the babies are about a week apart in size. Looking at the generated pictures, when you can see the babies together, it’s fairly obvious. At this time, I find out they’re identical, one placenta, two sacs. Later on I learn this means mono-di twins. Monochorionic, Diamniotic. The doctor starts describing a condition, which I later learn to be TTTS, where the babies can be different sizes, and the many risks. My mind can’t process any of this, my head is so glazed over.
Once I leave, I immediately call Scott. “Are you sitting down? Seriously, are you sitting. WE’RE HAVING TWINS!!!!’